broken

Im so lost right now i don't even know what to do anymore.
My heart is confused...It's tied up in knots.
I love you...and i always think you love me too...
But then you turn around and ask out some other girl...
Who will never love you as much as i do...
And yes i have a boyfriend but i don't and never will love him as much as i love you...
Maybe that's why you won't ask me out....
But when i was single you had your chance..and you lost it....
I try not to love you....but you can never stop loving someone...
You lead me on and then you just drop me.....
When i hug or kiss my boyfriend i'm secretly wishing it was you...
I know that is not right to wish that but i can't help myself...
And yes i do know you are kind of a player but i know if you went out me...
You would have no reason to like someone else....
I just am so confused everyone says you have the biggest crush on me..then why don't you ask me out?
I would just like to know that.....
Just so you know...it's not your looks that im after...i'm after your adorable personalilty and your sweetness...
Everyone says we make the perfect couple...i used to believe them...but now im doubting them...
I get so upset when my boyfriend tells me he loves me....because i know he means it...but im not so sure if i mean it when i say it back to him....
I would hate to break his heart...but my hearts is broken too....
I am just sooo confused...
I love you and i'm not so sure if you love me...i think you do...but i'll never know..
Im just so broken.....